Mood:
Reading:The Awakening
Listening to: Momus's Stars Forever

I'm sorry I haven't been around these past few weeks...a lot has happened, and I'm sorry I couldn't be there to comment on your work, read your journals, just support your art. I had to go away for a while, and I'll probably still be going for a while.

You see, I'm going through a really bad bout of depression. I won't burden you with details, I just want you to know why I was gone, and that (yes Tory), I'm still alive. Becauese with the internet, you have no face or voice, and when they dissapear they're gone.

I have actually written a lot during this time; I may or may not post it.

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you,

Sam

Sorry if I haven't been very active here lately-I'm really depressed at the moment. Just thought I'd do an explenation...

Let's just say most of the world sucks and I wished I lived in Sweden.

~Sam

Mood:
Reading: Bunch of things at the moment, too long a list.
Listening to: YahooLAUNCHcast.
Watching: Nadda.

"1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

</sarcasm>

Please post this in your journal if you are for gay marriage. "

This is so true it's sad!

You are born gay, you cannot change being gay, and gay people are not going anywhere.

Here's a Scandanavian proverb for you, goes something like, "A country can be judged by the way it treats it's minorities."

So, how are we doing? Not too well, I should think.

Mood:

Our assignment for this weekend in screenwriting is to write a scene by scene outline for the rest of our script. I'm now on the point of tears. Just, my script is so...so...sad! Simon's life is so indredibly depressing, I just want to go in and save him and hug him.

The tears are welling up for him...and his ending will not be happy.

I don't think I can stand it, I'm going to start sobbing. This is based on articles I've read, this happens, this brutality against what people find sinful...

It's too sad, too sad, too sad..... Oh God, the world is too frightening...

This is a horror movie. I knew what was going to happen roughly...but I didn't think they would happen like this.

But this is how the world works sometimes...like in the movie American History X.

I just wish it wouldn't permeate into my dreams.

Yet, the outline is done.

[Update]: =eustressor requested that I post the lyrics that NO ONE CAN SEE! ( ) So here they are.

And you should all buy his albums, because they will blow your mind.

Lost Blues
by Will Oldham

Don't you want to go where things move slow?
Give me a little time to take what I know
Follow the oceanline, follow the flow
Give me a little time to take what I know

Oh, and he's calling, but I do not answer
I am hunting for me now, and I must go quietly
And it's a hard way of walking, oh and I know
It's a hard way of talking, oh and I know

Oh, don't let your guard down,
and don't live far from town
Follow the oceanline, follow the flow
Give me a little time to take what I know
Give me a little time to take what I know

Oh, Lordy, Lordy, I am downstairs crying
They try and shush me, but I holler gleefully
In a house made for sleeping, oh and I know
With a mouth made of gold, oh and I know

I see him smile at me, smiling desperately
If only you would trust me, we would live happily
In a house made of silver, oh and I know
In a house made of platinum, oh and I know
Oh, hold the raft at the ready,
hold it fast, hold it steady
Follow the oceanline, follow the flow
Give me a little time to take what I know
Give me a little time to take what I know



I am officially a Will Oldham obsessed fan.

Mood:
Reading:The Mists of Avalon. I know! It's freakin' long but I love it. Almost makes me want to be a Druid...except for the sacraficing.
Listening:Push Barman to Open Old Wounds by Belle and Sebastian. LISTEN TO THEM, DAMN IT! They're awesome!
Watching:House.

The last journal I put up was depressing me, man, so I had to do something else, even though I have absolutely nothing whatsoever to say.

Well, I've updated my script, for those of you who are wondering what happens. The next scene I still have to work on, it's going to be so sweet and romantic and *estrogen rush*. You'll like it, Simon's so awkwardly funny. In screenwriting one of my fellow "classmates" said, "You should get him laid by the end!"

LOL, I agree. ~synthwrr was grossed out though.

I've also put up some new stories, mainly The Abduction of Ganymedes and my *majour* rewrite of Exiles of the Establishment. I'm having fun with it, man!

Yo, dawg, gotta comment, gee!

And if you do, I'll never say that again.

Peace out, y'all.

~Sam